After almost 2 years in Classical Conversations, I’m finally understanding a little bit more on how the CC curriculum is set up and how everything flows together. Before I get into this year, let me take a step back and be brutally honest about how I was feeling this time last year.
I.was.miserable. I didn’t understand the rhythm of CC, I didn’t know about CC Connected, I didn’t get why the kids were memorizing so many facts, I was SO far behind on the timeline song and I felt like I was the only person who wasn’t on board with the whole *Classical Conversations is the best thing ever* train. I dreaded our campus days because my kids never knew what was going on, and Sophie was usually in tears by the review games. I felt isolated and alone and I was SURE I was completely messing up my kids by homeschooling them.
There was this mom who was SO together at our campus. She had three kids, they were always on time, prepared, prepped and perfect. I felt so inadaquite next to her and after 14 weeks I finally turned and asked her how she had it all together.
I’ll never forget her response. She turned to me with wide eyes and said “I don’t have it all together. Some days we don’t even get through everything. My house is a mess, I forgot to get groceries and today I left our lunches at home.” In that moment, I realized that most of my isolation was because I was comparing myself to the other moms! (by the way, we are great friends now!)
Talk about an *AHA* moment!
I started talking with the other moms in my girls’ classes. It wasn’t easy, because I really am an introvert and it’s very hard for me to strike up a conversation, but I wondered if I was having all those major doubts, maybe I wasn’t alone. And I wasn’t. Every single mom I spoke with was worried that they were missing something in their child’s education, that they might be messing up, that they weren’t having fun. As we talked more and more it became apparent that while we were all in difference stages of our homeschool journeys we were all trying to do the best we could for our kids – and that is a great thing to bond over!
This year has been much better than last year. Believe me, there are still days when I question why they need to memorize the periodic elements, and we don’t do anything extra with Latin or the English grammar facts. There are days when I second guess myself about homeschooling and weeks when I feel like we are stuck in a rut.
If this is your first year of CC, don’t sweat it. It does get better and easier, I promise! If you think you are alone in feeling like you are totally messing up your kids – you aren’t. That timeline song that is 12 minutes long and you think you will never learn? You will. Those facts that seem crazy for a 5 year old to know? They remember and they WILL surprise you with what they retain.
I have come to love Classical Conversations, and believe me, last year at this time I was ready to run away from it as fast as I could. I think like everything else in life, there is a learning curve with CC, and it can be a steep one. However, if you can stick with the program, I really believe that it WILL be worth it.